There’s an old adage which goes “You cannot go back home again”. Defying reasoning and logic, I decided to return back home in 2009. I’d long felt an overwhelming and gnawing desire to return to Lagos, my childhood home in Nigeria and given the global economy was beginning to slow down at the time, I felt there couldn’t have been a better moment to go break bread with my kinsfolk, spend much needed time with my pops and more importantly to realign self.
And so it was that Dec ’09 found me jet bound for Lagos. I’d visited a handful of times over the years, but for no longer than a couple of weeks on each occasion. This time however, I doggedly insisted on fully immersing myself for months at a time to get a better sense of good old “Las Gidi”. Suffice to say, it has been an exhilarating, frustrating, exciting and revealing journey thus far, for indeed there were times when I was home geographically, yet I remained somewhat homesick within. Over time, I’ve come to realize that one carries home within oneself.
Whilst on ground during the early stages of my visit, I sought to chronicle my experiences firsthand and in the moment, but alas the words that appeared were too painful, bitter and angry. I guess my emotions were too “raw” and somewhat clouded for me to express coherently at the time. However, upon my return back stateside following each successive trip, my creative juices flowed freely. I was able to tuck myself away in a form of catharsis and relive my experiences in song. Out of these moments of self reflection, “Home Grown” was born.
From the hell raising cab rides through the manic streets of Lagos to the loving battle of wills fought with compassion and tenderness with my father, Nigeria will forever hold a special place in my heart, for it has in many ways moulded me into what I am today. It has informed my outlook and given me a sense of self that has served me ever so well till this day. Given I carry fond memories of the place, it’s people, feel and charms, one could say that it’ll forever remain a home of sorts in my heart regardless of where I choose to call my home